i guess it's just a silly song about you and how i lost you
i need to update the pictures on my wall. maybe i’ll do that today before school. i think the most recent photos on there are from syracuse and going to the beach in MAY. my summer is no where to be found on my wall. and i don’t know, but i love looking at pictures of my friends. especially now that i’m single.
it’s weird. i know they say that people always ditch their friends when they get boyfriends/girlfriends. i believe that’s true. i know i did. for two solid years. and i know people hated it, and talked about it, and talked about me, but i still did it. i would bail on going out all the time unless it was a birthday. i had a boyfriend, where’s the fun in going clubbing? majority of my friends believe that dancing with another guy is cheating. seriously? get out of here. but i didn’t want them chirping.
but seriously, all of these pictures on my wall are from big events: gian/emma/heather’s combined birthday, prom, heather’s cottage, britney spears and the beach. i didn’t really do much. i haven’t done just like a random photoshoot in ages. i kind of miss those.
but again, i look at the pictures of my friends and i smile. because even though for 2 years i wasn’t as close with them as i could have been, after justin and i broke up, they welcomed me back with open arms. because even though i was “gone” for 2 years, our friendship still meant something. kind of like they knew it would happen and that i would still need someone. and those are truly good friends.
yeah i definitely need to update that corner of my bedroom. i’ve had my birthday parties, my entire effing summer (!!!), fabiola/rochelle/vanessa’s going away parties, kingston, lil wayne, blink 182… holy. maybe one day i’ll fill out that entire wall. doubt it though.
why the fuck did i wake up at 6:30 on my own?! i mean i understand that i went to bed at 10, but still. i should have slept for more than 8.5 hours. i’m sick, aren’t i? i want to pass out for like 12 hours. that would be pretty wild for me since i usually don’t even sleep past 7. i mean, there’s no one on msn, and anyone on facebook chat i have no desire to talk to. there’s still only infomercials on tv at this hour. or 5 minute long tv shows for kids with insane a.d.d (how are you supposed to learn a lesson about life in 5 minutes? even the magic schoolbus couldn’t pull that off).
ugh. i guess i can go tanning in like over an hour? at least i get paid today. i need to buy a new dress for this gala that gian invited me to with his family. anne marie’s not letting me borrow any of hers (only the fugly ones) and i have none that are a) appropriate and b) if they are, they are wayyy too big for me now. so i guess i’ll hit up winners because i need cheapcheapcheap.
the sun’s not even out yet. pathetic.
