so i’m going to quit aerie.
working 3 hours a week is just noooot cutting it at all. so i applied for a job at Opinion Search yesterday. you make your own hours, minimum of 16 a week, and so that’s pretty sick. i really hope i get it because then i can finally say bye bye debt, hello personal trainer and hello moving out.
oh my god i’m so fucking hungry. but i’m really trying to cut back on food. i feel like everytime i eat an apple, my stomach gets SO hungry right then and there. but i love apples. and i’m watching the food network so that’s probably not helping me out at all. i want to go to the gym too but i’m so sleepy and i work at 5. but i am walking to work which i’m proud of. even though it’s SO fucking cold out right now. time to bundle up. i think i’ll tan before work too, just to warm up.
i would have a popcicle right now. but my house did not have the heat on. so my toes and fingers are frozen. so a popcicle probably isn’t the greatest idea.
finally ended it with anthony. i got chirped soooo hard last night for dating him by dunsy and ollson. it was hilarious, but still kinda like great… thanks haha. but i don’t care. i honestly thought anthony would be pissed and be a complete asshole to me about it. he comes off as that kind of guy, especially how he’s talked about girls in the past. but he straight up asked if i was still interested and i explained that i can’t just be about sex and that his messages just really threw me off. i told him i still wanted to text and sit together in class because he’s a cool guy. and he wasn’t mad! at all. he completely understood and he’s texted me a little and talked to me on facebook. he’s being completely mature about it.
too bad i totally creeped your friend and basically he’s my dream guy. great taste in music, so adorable, no ego, dressed up as luigi for halloween (to me, that like made my life), nice body, and again, just so cute.
i do want to get to know him. but i highly doubt that will ever happen. he’s so shy. and anthony would like kick his ass.
its been decided i could eat all day. because i know i don’t want to go through the eating disorder thing again. i think back at how much i didn’t eat during those months with my trainer. like 800 calories a day. man i hit that before noon these days. i don’t want to weigh myself. i just want to WANT to eat healthy again and be in shape. i just want to lose like maybe 10-12 pounds? fml right now.
